Working

I am working on my novel now. It took some days before I managed to begin, but now I have been sitting with it for the last five days.

It feels good! Though one get tired doing it. Word-tired! Have to do something totally different to relax. Like taking a walk, or a bike ride.

Can’t say cleaning and doing the dishes quite appeal to me… 😉

I will probably not be here quite as often for a while now, but I will pop in and see what you are doing. Would also love if Diana comes back with the Speculative fiction prompt next month.
After all – that was what started this adventure with my novel. Though I have lots of work to do on it before finishing. Haven’t even written all that is needed yet. Need an ending, and some more “highs” along the road. And deepen it. And it must be more exciting scenes. Scary and awful!

What I have now is a skeleton, only partially dressed.
But I have tremendous fun while dressing it.

Oh, these days…

For ten days, I haven’t been writing anything that could be labelled fiction. It’s a pity – but not horrible. But if this not-writing will continue longer, it will be horrible. I had hoped for more, when I finally began writing again.

Though, I’m not mad about myself. What good would that do? On the contrary. I would only feel miserable. I understand, and accept this hiatus since I know the reason why, and also know I soon will be writing again.

After been suffering from that burn-out for many years, without being able to neither read, write, nor listen to music (and more), it’s brilliant I have begun writing again at all! So what if I yet haven’t got the every-day-writing as a firm habit?

In a little less than two months, 56 days in April and May, I have written 34 100 words! Not counting blog posts!

So what if I have 10 days off?

I had hoped for Diana’s writing prompt for June, though. But due to personal matters she couldn’t do that this month. I understand, and look forward to July.

I also look forward to July months edition of Camp-NaNoWriMo. I obviously need a bit of pressure on myself to continue to write every day. Until I am self-going again, anyway.

And I will be. Self-going. Soon.

 

It’s almost silly

I’m still organizing those files, between the “must do’s”. Not much left now. Only the worst ones are still waiting for me to take care of them. The novels with the most files and folders are lying there grinning at me.

I dread starting to go through that massive slave-work.

Also, all of my files with saved blog posts are left. Couldn’t upload them to Scrivener. Probably due to all images. At that time, I just copied the posts as they were and pasted them into word documents.

So I’ll have to:
1). Throw away all copies!
2). Delete all images.
3). Turn all the posts into chronological orders.

Must be at least 1000-1500 posts in those files, if that’s enough, and not counting the copies. And then all the copies of the files… and copies of copies…

But I let my old health-and-food-blog go down the drain!

Goodness, gracious! How much I must have written during those years between 2006 and 2012! … or something.
(There are a few texts of later dates.)

It was fun checking out my work, though. Found myself reading here and reading there. Found idéas, notes, short drafts et cetera, which I had almost forgotten about.

Besides “The Solar Eclipse”, I have other Fantasy drafts, and after mixing some of those shorter texts (idéas, notes) with already existing drafts, I might have some kind of openings for at least two novels. Maybe three.
(Maybe more? My first novel started with a sentence I overheard one day. A sentence with three words only… and a “triptych” I wrote – three short stories that go together – began with a surname I once saw in an elevator…)

Do I have material for these? And imagination and inspiration enough to continue writing? Well! Let’s see! I’ve better go inside and ask my Muse.

“Do you think…
“Yes!” she immediately interrupts me. (Or if it is a he… or an androgyne… or my guardian angel… or my higher self… whoever…)

Apropos! I also found a short story I wrote fairly recently, in 2015 I think, with a Muse as the main character. It’s a funny story. A funny Muse. A male Muse. My Muse. (Okay! So it is a he, after all.)

There is, without doubt, more work to do with all these files, but I sense I ‘d rather want to start writing again now! Can continue sorting intermittently. There’s just one big question – which of those drafts, beginnings, whatever, should I focus on first? Or is perhaps the newest one, The solar eclipse, the one I now foremost need – actually need –  to keep on wakening me up from the not-writing-fiction-coma?

I must confess, though!

I’m scared.
Happy! Thrilled! But also scared.
It lures me – to start writing again, properly, after so many years with and after the burn-out.
But it also frightens me immensely. Especially if I chose to continue working on The Solar Eclipse…
And feel that I should share some results with you. Like a continuing story…

What if I fail???
What if I drop out???

Or is sharing with you, just what I need?
A little pressure to achieve… at least something?

My mistake!

And I started to think. (Better late than never…)

This is a solar eclipse, not a lunar eclipse!

Wrongly I wrote The Lunar Eclipse in a previous post. I guess the sentence “Overhead is a huge moon eclipsing the sun” made me think in the wrong direction. I, who usually think way too much, maybe didn’t even think at all this time. Probably also in combination with the fact that English isn’t my first language.
Ergo! I misinterpreted “moon eclipsing the sun”.

However! I must confess, I liked the "feeling" of "lunar eclipse" better. 
But I can change all that in the draft later... 
I can do anything I want in the draft later... :D

I DO make mistakes! I know. Hopefully, I discover at least most of my mistakes before publishing anything on the blog, and at least the worst ones. But I can’t be sure. Unless anyone tells me. (Please do!)

For example, I often make mistakes when choosing a preposition, but at least with that, Grammarly corrects me. Anyway, I hope so, I don’t always agree with its suggestions. (Especially not when it’s about commas. And it’s always nagging me about semicolons.)
Like this sentence in my previous post: “The first story written in this recent upgrade of Scrivener, and a story never written before.” Grammarly wanted me to add a “is” before the word written, and remove the comma after “Scrivener”.  And then, it wanted me to add a “was” before the second “written”. To me – that would change the entire meaning of the sentence into something else.
I didn’t agree. I think these suggestions make the sentence really ugly! Am I right or am I right? What do you think?
“The first story is written in this recent upgrade of Scrivener and a story never was written before.”
No! I would never, ever, even consider publishing a sentence as clumsy and wrong as this one!

THIS is a Lunar Eclipse! A full one.

Grammarly, however, can’t discover the wrongness in writing Lunar instead of Solar, since it isn’t wrong per see. Grammatically speaking. It could have been either or! But Grammarly is a machine, and can’t see images and draw conclusions from that.

So now I have to correct my mistakes, both in the previous post and in the draft I have in Scrivener. If I ever succeed in writing a novel or short story solely in English, I surely would need some alive person, to read the manuscript in search of mistakes in grammar, spelling and bad choices of words. Well, spelling is probably the least problem. Spelling has always been a strong side of mine, both in Swedish and in English.
But, who knows?

And this is, as said before, a full Solar eclipse.